"I am unable to take care of my son, who is 1 1/2 years. I have given him to my sister in law to look after. I do want to drink and forget the memories for a short period. How long can I do that? Then it will become a habit. And I don't want to get addicted to alcohol" says 33 years old fisherman Immanuel Jeyaseelan from Navalady. He lost his wife and daughter.